...with life, with love, with the new apartment, with my job struggles .... sigh. I'm just fed up with all of it. I don't want to be a grown-up right now, it's not working to my advantage. I want to be in school again, being woken up by my mom every morning, where the only troubles were homework and what to wear that day. No job, no bills, no anything stressful. I want those days back, but they're gone forever. And then I die. Life is really peachy, right? This living thing sucks so bad sometimes.
My back feels a lot better now that I'm walking more, but I feel like giving up some days. Walking is difficult and will always be that way, and sometimes I don't want to fight the good fight anymore. Is all this pain really worth it in the end? I don't know. *sigh* And right now I don't care. I wanna crawl into a cave and never come out.
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March 12, 2012
March 05, 2012
Wow!
Holy Jeebus, Batman! A lot has happened over the last month, and I just got too busy to write! Here's a quick breakdown ....
The child support hearing went pear-shaped from the minute I got there, and DA ended up being arrested right there in the courtroom and thrown in jail for 31 days! He's out this coming Thursday, though, and then I hope he goes back from whence he came and never darkens my doorstep again. I'm still not getting child support, but who cares? All I want is him to never step foot in my life again!
And ... the best news of all ... well, not the best, but still - we got a new apartment! We're out of the hotel, yay! Moved out on the 18th of last month, and I couldn't be happier! Nick's job is still going swimmingly, I'm still volunteering for peanuts a day (but it's still some money, blah) and ... and ... AND ....
*drumroll, please*
I'm able to walk again! Two shoes, baby! Out of the wheelchair and on my own, once again! I went to the doctor last week, and he said I'm completely healed so there's no need for another visit. Wooooot! I'm still not up to the same standard I was pre-accident, but I'm getting there. It's slow going for me, but I'm up! And moving! And about! And I'm ecstatic :)
I also started taking some prescription weight loss pills about the middle of last month, and my pants are already fitting looser than before! I don't have a scale, so I don't know how much (if any) I've lost, but I feel good about myself again, like before ... and that means a whole lot more than any number on the scale :)
The child support hearing went pear-shaped from the minute I got there, and DA ended up being arrested right there in the courtroom and thrown in jail for 31 days! He's out this coming Thursday, though, and then I hope he goes back from whence he came and never darkens my doorstep again. I'm still not getting child support, but who cares? All I want is him to never step foot in my life again!
And ... the best news of all ... well, not the best, but still - we got a new apartment! We're out of the hotel, yay! Moved out on the 18th of last month, and I couldn't be happier! Nick's job is still going swimmingly, I'm still volunteering for peanuts a day (but it's still some money, blah) and ... and ... AND ....
*drumroll, please*
I'm able to walk again! Two shoes, baby! Out of the wheelchair and on my own, once again! I went to the doctor last week, and he said I'm completely healed so there's no need for another visit. Wooooot! I'm still not up to the same standard I was pre-accident, but I'm getting there. It's slow going for me, but I'm up! And moving! And about! And I'm ecstatic :)
I also started taking some prescription weight loss pills about the middle of last month, and my pants are already fitting looser than before! I don't have a scale, so I don't know how much (if any) I've lost, but I feel good about myself again, like before ... and that means a whole lot more than any number on the scale :)
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