Is this death?

I have gastroenteritis, and it feels like the end is nigh. Fever, stomach and abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhea ... all of the finer things in life, combined into one convenient disease. So far today I've had a cookie and a cup of tea, one green bean and a bite of chicken. None of which fared well. I'm hungry but can't eat, and almost threw up in the bath yesterday because the motion of the water made me sick! Why can't this go away?! I suppose it's a good way to lose weight, if you're trying to be optimistic ... but I'm not at the moment.

When I do feel better, I've got some raspberry ketones to try that I got for free from a company called NutraH3. Don't really know what they're for other than a dietary supplement, but they smell good and come in a capsule that looks like I can swallow it without issue.

At least I can get some writing done during all this down time!

Issues

I had my gallbladder removed in July 2013, due to multiple stones that were aggravating the heck out of me. The problem I've been having since is constant diarrhea and stomach cramping. Is this normal? When I mentioned it to my doctor a couple of times, he told me that it's to be expected and there's nothing that can be done about it except wait it out. However, I've heard that the symptoms can last for several years before stopping! This can't be true, right? If that's the case, I would rather have my gallbladder back and deal with the stones that this!

In fact, in today's technological age, why can't they just make a disease-free gallbladder and put it back in? I know experts say that we don't actually need a gallbladder to function, but I don't recall having these symptoms with a gallbladder, right? This makes no sense! I've lost 20 pounds since my surgery, though, which isn't a lot (because I'm still festively fat), so I guess that could be seen as a plus. I'll start using the Leslie Sansone walking DVD pretty soon, though, as soon as my bones can handle the movement.

Time to Revive!

All right, folks, it's been WAY too long since the last update so let's get this party started again! So much has happened in the last YEAR that we're not going to pick up where we left off but rather start over in a sense.

We moved to Minnesota December of 2013; unfortunately, it didn't last long and we were back in Kentucky by January 2nd of this year. Along the way, I managed to lose about 20 pounds! Go me! I'm currently practicing a restricted diet and moderating my liquid intake - lots of water, not so much soda anymore. I had gallbladder surgery last July and am still suffering from the side effects of having it gone, but overall I'm feeling a lot healthier about myself and ... well, life in general. I'm ready to move forward!

Fed up

...with life, with love, with the new apartment, with my job struggles .... sigh. I'm just fed up with all of it. I don't want to be a grown-up right now, it's not working to my advantage. I want to be in school again, being woken up by my mom every morning, where the only troubles were homework and what to wear that day. No job, no bills, no anything stressful. I want those days back, but they're gone forever. And then I die. Life is really peachy, right? This living thing sucks so bad sometimes.

My back feels a lot better now that I'm walking more, but I feel like giving up some days. Walking is difficult and will always be that way, and sometimes I don't want to fight the good fight anymore. Is all this pain really worth it in the end? I don't know. *sigh* And right now I don't care. I wanna crawl into a cave and never come out.

Wow!

Holy Jeebus, Batman! A lot has happened over the last month, and I just got too busy to write! Here's a quick breakdown ....

The child support hearing went pear-shaped from the minute I got there, and DA ended up being arrested right there in the courtroom and thrown in jail for 31 days! He's out this coming Thursday, though, and then I hope he goes back from whence he came and never darkens my doorstep again. I'm still not getting child support, but who cares? All I want is him to never step foot in my life again!

And ... the best news of all ... well, not the best, but still - we got a new apartment! We're out of the hotel, yay! Moved out on the 18th of last month, and I couldn't be happier! Nick's job is still going swimmingly, I'm still volunteering for peanuts a day (but it's still some money, blah) and ... and ... AND ....

*drumroll, please*

I'm able to walk again! Two shoes, baby! Out of the wheelchair and on my own, once again! I went to the doctor last week, and he said I'm completely healed so there's no need for another visit. Wooooot! I'm still not up to the same standard I was pre-accident, but I'm getting there. It's slow going for me, but I'm up! And moving! And about! And I'm ecstatic :)

I also started taking some prescription weight loss pills about the middle of last month, and my pants are already fitting looser than before! I don't have a scale, so I don't know how much (if any) I've lost, but I feel good about myself again, like before ... and that means a whole lot more than any number on the scale :)

Good grief ....

I have a court hearing this morning regarding child support, and I'm scared to death. I hate going to court  for any reason, but child support is the worst. Just the thought of possibly seeing my son's father makes me nauseous, I don't want to see his weaselly face or hear his mouth spout lies. I just want it over and done. Honestly, I wish I wasn't even involved with child support. He can just keep his greasy money and leave me and my child alone, for all I care.

I don't wanna. Why is being an adult so hard sometimes?

Family Movie Night?

Guest post written by my buddy Lavern Small

We’re all about family movie night in our house but lately we’ve really gotten into some premium channel series. There’s one on Showtime right now called Homeland that’s practically the best sow I’ve seen in years and I just think it’s just because I’ve always like CIA type stuff. I love that it’s set in DC, too, because I think it’s so cool seeing all the landmarks and stuff. My husband was really against us getting www.satellite911.com/ channels because he said we didn’t need them but I think all the good shows on Showtime (he really likesDexter, too) are making it worth it for him. I love that he’s so frugal but sometimes you’ve got to make life worth living, am I right? Anyway, we still have family movie nights but they’re often more about watching the latest episode than the latest movie which I think is a great way for us to bond, either way! No one ever said family movie night had to be all about movies, you know what I mean?